I have been married 3 and half years and initially my husband said for 2 years will not plan for baby and i was 25 years by that time and i too felt i dont know how to handle a baby and than after a year my husband went U.S and i was in India and working and inbetween many misunderstandings and family problems and 2 years i was living alone and once in 6 months my husband comes India and i was felt like if am conceived i need my husband near with me to take care and feel the journey of pregnancy. Once i got conceived without planning within a year of marriage but my husband said dont want a baby now and also when we checked with doctor she said baby not formed well and he convinced me to abort it.. And now i came with my husband itself to US and from past 4 to 5 months we are trying for baby but its not happening and am fully frustrated and stresed and feeling very guilty that first time i have aborted..
I am really feeling lonely with out family and friends and cant able to express fully to my husband. My husband also now want a baby that too every month he is expecting any good news will it be.
And I have irregular period problems as well. And also now we decided to check with doctor and initially general checkup i have done and the doctor said uterus is healthy and no sists are anything and need not worry and again we planning to check with the gynocology specialist.
I want to feel the meaning of my marriage life,.. I am really wanting for baby i dont know how but i am crying with guilty and fear and how long i have to wait and searching everywhere about pregnancy.. pregnancy..